I had a pretty good morning except I did run, and I need to eat. I don't understand the eating and not being hungry; it is not part of my ED. Even with the worst anorexia I had, I was starving and thought about food and wanted to eat all the time (had an appetite, just didn't indulge it much).

If things don't improve, I'll see the doctor. Not sure if I should bother with the PCP or just go straight to the GI doctor. My perforated ulcer surgery had to be altered a bit from the textbook form, and some part of it was similar to getting a gastric sleeve, which I didn't need; I was 5'4" and 120 lb. at the time of the surgery, a healthy weight for me.

I'll see what the pdoc says next week. He is really getting on my case to gain weight, but I have a hard time not exercising, and now, I have a hard time trying to find an appetite. The GI doc had mentioned checking my gallbladder & doing a colonscopy. Ugh. Might have to.

I did do a writing prompt today, which was nice for me and also baked a cake from a mix as H and daughter like a dessert after dinner. Going now though to eat even if I don't exactly feel like it.

Hopefully, I can read a bit afterwards, maybe go through more of my clothes. I can't believe how many clothes I have of the "OMG, was I even THINKING when I bought this??!" variety, more than I realized.