Thanks everyone. Papa bear (my husband) just now said that I over think things. I also agree about characteristics of having been abused. I can relate. He doesn’t expect me to change that though. He doesn’t expect me to change who I am or magically snap out of (ugh) my MI and MH issues. Or to magically move on and ignore my truth. Or my grrrrr. Or my inner cub(s).. He knows I’ve been abused by the FOO, by so called mental health providers, and others. I don’t like to “burden” him (hate that word) with my pain and “issues”. Most of the time, he’s happy, so I’m doing something right.

I would also prefer a robot... or a teddy bear ..as a therapist (by far) than the therapists or doctors I’ve consulted grrr. They either just go by the book, with little or no creativity or they have a particular sort of mental illness (imo) or both.