Freewill, I understand you co-consciousness. I have one right now I fight because what she wants to do will get me into serious trouble. Another one is the suicide one, and one is the one that keeps us going. She usually comes out when therapy is a mess to tidy up. There is a man too but so far he just talks in my head, maybe a boy. He spoke during a bad flashback. It was a frightening flashback. I made myself leave the flashback before I saw everything. He spoke to me when I was thinking about something and he told me I was on the right track. He is a young man/boy. I am not sure of age. I am just not sure how many there are. This one that likes the bad stuff. I used to just leave and she did the stuff. Now that I am aware of her I don't always leave. Thank goodness this way I can fight her. But is SOooo hard. The other day we got into such a battle that I switch between her and me so many times I wound up passing out in therapy and then the play nice one came out to tidy up. I told T I did not think i even had a real me. I thought she had been killed off a long time ago. Does anyone else ever feel like that.
So right now mine are really active. Coming and going too much. And there are the little ones that don't talk, just make me sad. Some of them I think are too young to have much of a voice. JMHO


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