Thanks everyone.
Haha, I celebrated the same way last night. (Guess I've been wanting to do that for awhile(!))

I'm getting waves of emotion and tearing up sometimes. Not in a sad way, but in an emotional overload way. In fact, I never cried a single sad tear throughout. Felt some sadness, you know, over time lost, the final acceptance that it was never going to be like it was at the beginning (getting love-bombed, which I didn't know of at the time), the impending loss of my hanging out watching and commenting on dvds partner, things like that.

Now I need to start writing down some self-care strategies. Thinking of things I haven't done in forever, have wanted to do, but haven't... Like I've been thinking of going to some MeetUp, but no idea which one(s). I hoped one would be a match musical taste-wise, but no such luck. Maybe some art?

It's almost like I need to recall what my interests even are(!) Well, not exactly -- I *did* maintain some, but not to the extent I should have. Everything got eclipsed. It feels like I have so much more TIME now(!) There were spells (like his sleeping for days) where I had a lot of time, but it was different. There was an emotional cloud hanging over it. No cloud now.