I think it would be good for you to tell your husband about the past abuse. He can't know how upsetting some of his words are to you if he doesn't know anything about the abuse you endured. It's ok to need help. Telling him might help him understand why things are sometimes more difficult for you than other people. I wish you the best. And, talking to a therapist would be a really good thing. Sometimes we need to let others help us carry our heavy load. I know I need help sometimes. It's hard to keep it all inside and feel like we are alone. Try to open up to your husband a little. I hope things get better for you.

Jenn