I don't really have any news, but I feel like I'll explode if I don't talk to someone.
I guess the news is I wasn't feeling well yesterday and so today I'm resting up while my H runs errands. I guess mood is normal, maybe on the high end except when I have to do things I don't want to do or that give me anxiety. Still always contemplating whether this is truly bipolar 2 or not. I was thinking about the last few times I was "high" and I suppose I did some regretable things, but I think it could have been circumstantial too. I wonder if I would have done it the same way had I been diagnosed sooner. And I wonder whether or not I'll repeat those things. I think maybe not because I recognize them as problems,...but on the other hand, my pms irritability has been less to none, so I guess I am getting helped regardless of diagnosis. I know I know I've been told that diagnosis is less important than effective treatment,...
anyway, I guess I'm just trying to find my place. Feeling a little lost and looking for sympathy. I can't always talk like this with my family. They either aren't as deep or they have just heard it so many times and have nothing more to say. Ah, I hope I don't start feeling that way about this place. Sometimes it's nice just to pretend someone is listening than to know for certain that they aren't.
lol boy i think too much! am I talking too much?? that was one of my problems. well, overtexting. I've been so depressed for so long, I haven't really been saying much, but today I feel different....well, I'm gonna stop it now before it gets too much more.
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Celexa (Citalopram) 20mg
Levothyroxine .75mg
Liothyronine 5MCG (2x daily)
Probiotics
And a whole slew of vitamin and herbal supplements.
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