I was reading through one of Obsids' last posts....and I was seeing myself., though on a much larger scale.

I'm still cleaning up dirt from off my livingroom rug from the large potted asparagus fern that I threw, the marks on the wall from when I slapped the candle holder down.

All triggered by stupid things, incredibly stupid things....the last one triggered by having the laundry taken away from me and tossed on the ground.

and I feel ashamed I shouldn't be that angry.....what has happened in just a few months, to change me from a self-sufficent woman, that could hold down 3 jobs, and take care of everything, to a snivelling pile of smelly mush that can't leave the house unless she's accompanied by someone............that can't travel, that can't watch certain movies....and the bloody lists goes on and on.......actually! I could go on forever....but as I sit here and think about it, the angrier I get!

I'm going to walk away now......and do something else.