Thanks all for the advice I definitely think I was having some sort of extinential crisis at the time. I still think about death a lot and I feel scared, but not as much as before. I just want to live my best life possible and have fun.

Work has improved a lot and I now don’t mind going as much I’m getting a lot of good feedback which really helps my motivation, and my therapy has made me worry less about what people think of me, so I feel much more relaxed than before. Although I’m not quite there yet!

I have tried mindfulness and it was recommended by my T. I do find it useful, I am such a rush of a person that I find it hard to sit still for ten mins or so and do it! But I am thinking of giving it another whirl

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