Silver, I feel like a mommy here. Maybe because you and my son are almost exactly the same age. Honey please tell others, including the counselor how you are feeling. I have been so lonely that I would, tried to take my own life. You have love here. You are a very unique human being. Silver, I didn't tell anyone this but I am agist, I believe, as I was taught that young people's feelings and beliefs have no meaning. However, you have meaning, your pain has meaning, and my Jane knew that we all had meaning. Please my dear friend reach out. If not close to you than with us. You are a soulful young lady and I feel such a bond with you. Can I come to London and visit?