Hi Nels. Thank you for your thoughtful reply and for telling me what helped you.

I think, mainly, I'm confused about why my therapist brought up structural dissociation to me. I do not feel clear about it at all, to the point of feeling like it may not even be accurate for me. I need to get clarification from her on what she meant. I went into therapy on Friday hoping to talk about how to deal with my anxiety over certain social situations. It didn't go as planned, but that's ok. I did get some good things out of it.

One thing I want to point out, is that I am doing a lot better from where I was before. I take medication. I moved out of my parents house 1 year ago. Best decision of my life. I regularly attend a DBT therapy group. I do social stuff when I feel I'm able, though I still experience a lot of anxiety over it and I'm wanting to talk in therapy about it.

Thanks again. I do appreciate your response.

ps: I started seeing myself as a survivor, and it has really been helping. Instead of wallowing in my problems, and what didn't go right in therapy, etc. It really helped.