I keep thinking about the abrupt termination I´m going through and I suffer every day from it since it happened about a month ago.


To me the hardest part in this is knowing the therapist doesn´t care or at least she doesn´t care nearly as much as I am. She isn´t affected in any substantial way and it hurts very much as I was always honest with her and I didn´t do her any harm.


Sometimes I think of writing her something about how I feel and how I now suffer but if I don´t receive an answer, which I probably won´t, that will hurt even more.


My therapist can move on with her life, her work, her husband while I´m very stuck at the moment. I´ve become more depressed than before this happened and I lie on my bed, I sleep both day and night, I cry and I try to get a grip about what happened.

I think what´s hurting the most is she doesn´t care how I feel. She lied to me and went beyond the rules of her organization which lead to terminating me. But the hardest part is still that she now doesn´t care about me anymore.

It´s all so fake even if I understand a T can´t be there forever and after a termination. But it´s very unfair, it´s me who already was in a vulnerable state who´s being put in an even more vulnerable state.