Update: I'm still around. Just got back from a doing a photoshoot for one of my projects.

Now I'm feeling like I can't do enough. I hurt myself but not as bad as I would have liked to. It makes me feel like I've failed. I'm so tired. I need a break, but we don't get one until Christmas. And then when I go back home the environment is always so chaotic and stressful. I just don't know where to feel safe anymore.

Thanks everyone for your concern.