Have you ever looked into extended cycle birth control? Seasonique is the only thing that has ever managed to help my periods. I have PMDD and have been on this birth control since I was sixteen. It definitely helps my PMDD symptoms and on the plus side only four periods a year and the periods at least for me is light spotting. I know finding hormones that work is a bit like trying to find the perfect anti psychotic.

I know some days it feels like my anxiety makes me feel horrible. Anxiety is just a horrible thing to deal with. I'm sorry it's making you feel terrible.

Don't ever wish something would have killed you. You have a daughter who needs you and a husband who loves you.

I hope you get to feeling better.