Hello,

I identify as a gay woman. Lately I've been a little confused because I've been having some attraction toward men. I know I don't want to date a man but I have been intimate with a few of them.

Like 5 days ago I had these two guys at my apartment. A lot happened. I thought to myself "sure they're attractive" but quite honestly I can't get past doing anything with or too their down below. I did do it but honestly I hated it. I was super grossed out the whole time even though my body said otherwise.

So...is this like an identity crisis? You know...the symptom of unstable self image? And perhaps the impulsive sex. Or is this just me doing that because I needed some sort of release and couldn't find a girl?

I feel kind of icky. Idk what to think about it or if there's anything I can do.