So much truth in that article. I started drinking when I was 15 so this has been a pattern for over 10 years now. This might sound incredibly stupid but I hadn't even had a single thought about the last time I let myself drink like this which was last summer. That article somehow made it finally come to mind. Last summer I went into inpatient for help to stop drinking after my husband and therapist begged me to since I kept ending up in the drunk tank because I would get extremely out of control and try to kill myself. I was very sick even though I didnt expect to have any withdrawals and it took almost a week before I could think of a single good thing about myself. I don't want that to happen again. I didnt drink tonight but I definitely wanted to. This will probably take some time to get over but hopefully I can do it. Plus I'm sick enough, these new meds are giving me heartburn, nausea and vomiting every day. Of course I have the thoughts like, then again, if I'm gonna be sick anyway....

Thanks for caring Today was a bit better even though tonight has been very rough. There is some hope!