I keep messing up this klonopin reduction and making it so much worse.

The first time we tried it I cut 1 mg pills into 4ths and then took 1.75 but still didn't feel well on it so my pdoc had me stop. We decided that a consistent dose was probably better so she prescribed .5 mg pills to divide in halves to get the 1.75 mg.

The pharmacy screwed up the script and I gave up on it and decided I knew what I was doing. So I thought I needed to take 1.5 pills and that made me drop to 1.5 mg too fast. Which has been causing worse and worse side effects.

Last night (tonight?) I decided that I needed to go up to 1.75 mg. So I carefully cut a 1 mg tablet into 4 pieces. I was so focused on that project that I forgot I needed to take 1/2 of a 1 mg tablet. So instead of increasing my dose I decreased it to 1.25 mg.

I had a terrible night with very little sleep. I took a gabapentin PRN and got a few hours that way and I took the .5 mg of klonopin when I realized what I did but it's not putting me to sleep so I'm wide awake on a few hours of sleep.

I'm supposed to drive my nieces home today. Its a 2 hours trip each way. My mom can't leave until later and so she can do it but it's a lot since she has a big day of work tomorrow. I hope I feel ok to do this. But with so little sleep I'm probably not. I feel so guilty for saying I could do this, although to be fair I said I could meet my sister halfway. I just can't believe how badly I messed things up.