Mckel... i started cutting when i was about 9 prior to that i would bite my arm... squeeze objects in my hand ... bang my head... or pull my hair... it started as away not to feel the physical & emotional pain while i was being abused... i found that when i squeezed sharp objects it would take me to a place where i wasn't aware of what was happening to me... it just kind of evolved... now in response to your question about if i think hearing about it can trigger si... i know it triggers the urges ... i pretty much only cut during abusive situations...when my marriage ended it pretty much stopped ... there were a couple times but,i hadn't cut for more then 12 years... i was in a support group where a couple of the members cut...i hit bottom and was finding myself considering suicide(actually more then considering)... i started again as a was of checking to see if things got too bad could i follow through...and after that it took on a life of it's own...and now the thought to cut is there just about all the time ...lyn
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