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Old Oct 22, 2018, 08:51 AM
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I'm having a horrible morning and am depressed and near tears. Doesn't help I'm on my period, I guess.

When I woke my daughter for school, she was yelling and screaming at me when I turned on the lights and took the covers off her bed, which is really the only way to get her up. Later, I checked on her; she hadn't dressed, and I told her to get dressed, more screaming. Checked again and she had undergarments on and nothing else. I tried to help her put her dress on (it has a belt the ties in the back), and she screamed & yelled at me again. At that point, I did raise my voice to her, telling her I was just trying to help, and I'm tired of being treated this way every school morning, she could put her dress on herself.

I apologized to her before eating breakfast, but she refused to apologize to me. She was completely silent in the car ride to school. Because H is so lenient on her, I think she practically views her behavior as acceptable, but it really hurt me. I told her I am doing my best with her, but I do need her to meet me partway. Didn't seem to want to hear that.

Stomach in tangles, feel like crying; I don't know how I'll get through this day. Doubtless she will forget about it until tomorrow morning when the cycle will repeat, and I've told her again and again to please net scream at me in the morning and remember I have feelings too. And H is like, "Why should she take you feelings into consideration? She hardly plays or interacts with you" which hurts me more. How am I supposed to repair such a torn relationship?

Her behavior (for a 10, almost 11 year old) is not acceptable morning behavior, and I don't know why H won't back me up and tall her it is not OK to treat me that way every morning (pretty much as if I'm worthless to her), and it hurts my feelings, especially if she is not sorry at all and does nothing to admit that while I may be partly to blame, so is she.

Have to grocery shop. Practically in tears. This is a horrible start to the day.
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