I'd also like to add that whether or not the experience of being terminated is "traumatizing" or "re-traumatizing" the experience when it comes to an "unhealed" place is the same. My last T tried to say my experience with her was because of my family, and hence not really real, or really so bad, but she absolutely didn't get it. It was horrible, and with her. Even though I hadn't yet "felt" the feelings from my family, it still doesn't matter, because the therapist was yanking away the possibility of a "healing" social environment, in the same way that my family had. Hence I remained "unhealed", and with the wounds now "activated", debilitating me and my ability to function.

If there was a traumatic wound in me that had been covered over and compartmentalized, rather than healed, and the therapist was the stimulus for it being activated, then it was still the wounded whatever. And the therapist abandoned it. Maybe the therapist didn't "intend" to (re)traumatize me -- but, in my case, I strongly believe than neither did the original family members.

Calling it "decompensation", as some therapists might to try take the responsibility away from themselves, doesn't hold water, either. Because the therapist LEFT ME in the decompensated state, not able to function well. Couldn't do anything to help it, didn't warn me. How could I have know that could be a possibility? Or what I could do if it happened?

The trauma was there. I was in therapy for trauma and dissociation and so was willing to face "stuff" in my past -- if we (the therapist and I) could get to it.

I was NOT, however, prepared to be traumatized in the way I had been traumatized in the past, and then socially dumped and abandoned, repeating the original trauma.

The therapists are NOT off the hook, in my book. They don't know what they are doing, maybe -- neither did my family members.

But THEY are "professionals", though. With licenses in most jurisdictions.

It's a horrible situation, repetitiously horrible. I'm so sorry for all of us. Myself included. Though being sorry is not enough, of course. Still not sure what next to do, though.