I can’t speak for your therapist Sarah but will wager a guess that she did in fact care about you. (I’ll refrain from making keyboard judgments about her overall competency and skill around your termination).

The sad fact is that our feelings are often disproportional... ie we feel much stronger about our therapists than they feel about us. Most of this is because therapists take on a distorted value to us because of their work and role.

I’m not a huge medicine fan, but I think they can help when traumatic things happen in our lives. Ididitmyway was right on the mark. Again not going to impose my own views, but would consider what happened to you to be a major life trauma and to treat it as such.

What helped me through a similar situation was learning to take better care of myself. It’s not the same as the care another person can give you, but it helps. That means spending more time relaxing on the couch, cozy pajamas, takeout, treating myself to a few spontaneous purchases, and so on. To be completely transparent, I consider myself to be about 80% recovered. I wake up in the morning in a panic most days (I too found termination to be traumatic), but am able to get out of it much faster. The old adage every day gets a little easier is really true with big losses.

Wishing you healing and closure soon!