Thank you for sharing. I'm here if you would like support as I'm share others here would too.
I don't recognize your name that well though. I stay in this forum; all I can do to keep up w/ these posts! Do you have a therapist now? They won't send you away unless 1- you're in danger of harming yourself or 2- you're in danger of harming another. Even those 2 things have to be very serious in order for them to send you away. I had asked my T this question myself. You can talk 'bout hurting yourself or another, the difference is actually having the proverbial knife to wrist. THEN they can remove you but that's not the first course of action for most T's.
Most people w/ DID were sexually abused but there are other forms of trauma that can trigger alters, doesn't have to be sexual. Being hit & abused physically or even emotionally by being demeaned & called names, are all forms of trauma. They all can trigger the mind to split. We're not all like Sybil. I myself didn't have "that" bad of a childhood but yet I'm DID. My other 2 sisters were molested more than I was & they're not even close to having an dissociative disorder. So don't sell yourself short.
Keep up w/ your To Do list. It'll help you stay focused in real life. It's one of the keys we tend to do that helps.
If you need me, feel free to email. I hope this post helps you a little.
Love,
MarinaJoi