Thanks for your insight on this. I have thought about this as an opportunity as well as she told me she was worried how I would react when she told me we had to end therapy. By that she just kept going instead of telling me that 20 sessions couldn´t be exceeded.


What´s strange is that she also kind of lied to me when she after like five sessions or so told me I could see her as long as I needed and during our time together she often encouraged me in different ways as if we could just decide for ourselves how long we were going to meet.


That strengthens your thought that she might have cared "too much" about me.

As you say, she must have on some level knew that the amount of sessions would be found out in some way or the other but she kept going. To me that´s a strange way of caring as she must have realised it would end in me just being "thrown out" of therapy.

Perhaps she didn´t want to see it, she told me she felt a tussle between me and the organization's rules and in a way it seems she didn´t want to let me go.


But now it´s still a fact that she has her work, her husband and so on and I´m just left on my own and that makes me feel she didn´t care in a way that made me end up in a better position but in a worse.

I just hope this affects her on some level or else it´s just horrible knowing I, who looked for support, is the only one in pain.