Have some of your questions been answered for you?
I'll tell you a little 'bout me. I have DID & sometimes I blank out but mostly I was co-conscious. I just feel like a different person. I liken it to being a puppet. My body's doing things or my mouth's saying things that I have no control over. I was a dissociative since age 7 (I'm 30 now). I was also diagnosed w/ BPD but was told that since it's a pers. disorder, it can be curable. Unlike dissociative. Then a good T told me not to focus on the disorders or labels. Just to be you. Don't care what you're supposed to be or not supposed to be.
Re: the therapist, if you have a good T, they'll steer the conversation so you won't have to figure out what to say or not to say. & what I've been told by mine which has helped me so much is that no feeling is wrong. Whatever we say or feel, there's no right or wrong in therapy. A good T will go on what you do say & work from there. Never settle neither. If you don't click w/ your T, find a new one. I've been in & out of therapy for 15 years & for 2 years now I found a really good one. Don't settle for anything less.
This is just my story & my opinions. Just thought I'd share.
Love,
MarinaJoi