flowergirl, I've been with T for 3 1/2 yrs now. You know when I said yesterday that I don't want to get attached because it hurts to bad, T replied, but you are already attached. When she said that I felt some of the fight go out of me. How can I continue to fight what already is. I told her my only experince of being attached as a child was like being attached to a knife, it hurt to bad. Of course T is like something I've never experienced before, and I'm still scared to believe its real, always prepared for the worse, accept the worse never happens.