Update:
I’ve got a psych appointment tomorrow and I’m not sure if she’ll put me on the darn mood stabilizer yet. I feel like it’s taking forever I just want to feel ok again and get up off this couch. I feel lazy but I know I’m sick. Neurologist wants the MRI to rule out MS. I wonder if meds would effect the MRI or if I can go on the mood stabilizer anyway. The Bupropion is mostly out of my system I think. The tremors pretty much gone. It tremors just slightly between my eyebrows when I close my eyes and that it. Hoping that goes away soon. Brain fog. Can’t think clearly. No motivation to do anything. I’m exhausted. My husband is too good and too nice it makes me sick. I wish he’d get mad at me not doing enough so we can fight. But I know he just is too damn sweet. It’s gross how sweet he is. 14 years of marriage and when in like this I don’t like him because I don’t like me. But he and I both know I’ll get over it and love him again when I’m better. For now fake kissy face and heart texts and watching the Big Bang theory is about all I want to do with him. I have no sex drive at all. It was coming back with the Bupropion and stopping it was just like shutting down my sexual systems. We’ve had sex only twice in the last 4 months(and it was sex for him not me if you know what I mean) . When I’m healthy we’re at least twice a week.

I feel like crap.
Sorry for all the “I”’s