Aw... You've spent all this time with this person - you feel like if you have to give it your all and save the relationship. You're used to them and the thought of losing this supposedly unconditional support is terrifying. I'm sure letting go of the family / friends ties that you have accumulated over the years isn't easy either. I know...

My ex and I were together on and off for a little over five years. That on and off **** gets extremely exhausting. I wasn't exactly happy without him but I wasn't happy with him either; I still felt this huge void that he could not fill when we were together. I felt like I was never 100% satisfied. I was always worried and angry, waiting for his calls or texts or affection... It was all heartbreaking. I'm not sure about you but we went through a lot of trouble. And I think some things are really hard to come back from. That hurt will remain no matter how long it has been or how many times they apologize for it. It will always be at the back of your mind.

We finally ended things (it wasn't a clean cut off, but eventually it got easier), and now I am with this amazing guy. He helped me understand why it had never worked out with my ex before. I really think different people bring out different versions of you. The guy I'm with now brings out the excited, happy, joyful person that I am, not the sad, insecure, jealous person that I was. When you're with the right person, you are not confused whether you want to be with them or not. You'll still argue and have bad days, but confrontation is dealt with maturity.

It doesn't matter how long you've been with the person, or all the things you've been through with them. The only regret I have is not breaking it off with him sooner before we hurt each other more. We are different people every day, and people do change. You can't love and hold onto memories of a person. Do you like how they are now? And how they long to be? If not, you can either accept them fully for who they really are and see if you can still love them wholeheartedly, or move on and forward because it's not your responsibility or place to change them to how you want them to be.

Sorry it got pretty lengthy, I just have a lot of sympathy for this kind of situation because I've lived it.

If you really want to move on:
- block him on social media
- change his name to "YDB - You Deserve Better" so that's what you see when you're tempted to call or text or getting calls/texts from him.
- and do not contact him or respond to him for 30 days.

^ This really works.
And after the 30 days - if you still want to get him back...
I can tell you how, just message me.