Everyone knew I was shy.
Everyone knew I was
Only loud and hyper
When my friends were working.
I only larked around
With some people.
They tryed playing doctor,
Put two and two
Together and reached 500!
I was naturally hyper
When I had a
Partner in crime.
On my own I was
A bag of nerves.
Like most youths
I showed off for my
Friends or when I had
The right audience.
I would have did
More time on the tills
And found out how
To relax, and ease myself
Into proper small talk
But I was enraged when
My thug coach made
Fun of me for being
Till trained as my first boss
And him were friends.
So I avoided
Them on purpose.
If there was no one
In I got on with too well
I exchanged pleasantries
And I got stuck into
My work. I never acted
Ambivalent to anyone.
Unless I made a joke
Because my friend
Was with me
In the passing.
And I was such a thinker
That sometimes I apologised
To them later. When
Your doing a menial
Job theres time to think.
And I am a deep thinker
Who just so happens
To like to perform.
Or as I have put it
In the past: have a blow out.
My ability to adapt
Was mistaken as a flaw.
In my previous job
You couldnt be yourself
It was doing drills
And you had to play a role.
With this job
I could be myself
With tact of course.
I was young and I
Was trying to come
Out of my shell.
Failing miserably at times.
I was funny with friends.
But I worked in full
View of the public
With security cameras
Everywhere for 24/7.
I felt nervous at work.
The moral of the story is:
Leave the psychology
To the experts everyone
Or you can do more
Damage than good.