Thank you. I hope I can have more windows of happiness during my days. Doesn't seem like it at the moment though.

I'm sick of living this way - it's barely a life. And I don't have hope of it getting better. Can't see why it should...

My therapist is very encouraging, the only person in my life actually. I saw her today. But when I'm alone at night like now her words slip away and I just feel the pain again. Don't know what to do..