Thanks. I think what came first in this was my therapist telling me, about five session in, that I could see her as long as I needed. That was long before I had gotten attached to her. My therapist sometimes gave me hugs which I in a way appreciated but also was hesitant about getting.

My therapist told me that she needs supervision to understand why she did this, why she exceeded the session limit and she also told me she was worried about how I would react when she told me we had to end therapy.

But all this was created by her, if I had known there were 20 sessions and no more I hadn´t engaged in therapy in the way I did. Perhaps I hadn´t even continued with her as I know 20 sessions aren´t enough.

I think my therapist had feelings for me in the beginning but she somehow changed her attitude towards me and didn´t even try to talk to a manager or similar. She just let her supervisor decide we couldn´t continue therapy anymore.

I´ve already had two phone sessions with her and she told me there is no more explanation to this and when I asked her "I assume you also think it had been better with some sessions to terminate" she vaguely stated that had been the optimal way of doing this.

There´s a big risk I get more wounded if I´d ask such a question like how she felt about me and she didn´t answer or use some standard answer like "I liked working with you" and that would add to my grief.