How do you cope with the fact that your T doesn't always say what they really think? They will fake liking something or supporting you when they actually think something else? Or they will say "oh that sounds fun!" when they don't mean it at all? And it's absolutely obvious because for example you're describing an absolutely boring TV show which you don't watch but you're going to watch one specific episode because your friend is there. Otherwise that show is crap. But your T will exclaim "oh, that sounds fun!!!". Or on other occasions they will change their approach or commentary about something more serious based on what you say. I do online therapy and I have copypasted all our sessions so I can objectively compare what the T said about one topic on several occasions. And that she'll change her approach 180 degrees and act like she's always claimed the same thing...

I knew that therapy is fake but today it somehow hurts even more. It really touched me that none of it is real!

I feel she does care and does want to help me, but not knowing her real opinions is just frustrating!