I found out from my patient portal that I am bipolar. Doctors have been going back and forth on it but I guess my current doctor has diagnosed me with it. I have excellent control over my moods and I rarely show my moods. I have a lot of mini mood swings but just in my head. I have been told I don’t show my emotions. I’m on geodon and lamictal which I guess must just be doing a really good job.

Lately though at work I’ve been having anger issues. Today one of my coworkers was kind of lazy and just threw an empty box in the bin and it landed on top of the bin and I sort of angirly shoved it in so it would fit. I didn’t think anyone noticed but then I realized that the store manager was behind me. I’m not sure she noticed. She didn’t say anything. It was early in the day and I didn’t hear anything about it all day. I’m guessing if she had seen it she would have talked to me about it. Maybe it wasn’t even a big deal.

I feel like I do need to get my anger in check though. It’s this silent anger thing I do. I just like slam things around and stuff without actually saying anything. I’m pretty sure it can get me into trouble if I don’t manage it.