I pulled out my old camera and went over the recordings on it. I found a message my ex left me 4 years ago. Just saying he loved me and stuff. Told me to hit him up on the video after I was done watching. I texted him about it since we're still on speaking terms. He thought it was funny it had taken me this long to watch it. Then we said our goodbyes, both without an "I love you" at the end. Still hurts. It's always on the tip of my tongue and I have to choke it down. I'm not over him, but I'm trying to move on. After watching that and smiling at it, I feel back to square one. Seeing how much he loved me then, to nothing that powerful now... it just hurts. ****, will I ever get over this?