thank you everyone for your support. i never thought about printing out this post and giving it to her. That might be a good idea. yes i know my mother has mental health issues herself it just makes me so angry that she is 47 and is still in denial. and she has never actually received help. Sometimes i go back and forth between anger and feeling sorry for her because maybe she is hurting really bad. Any way thank you again for everything.

I don't think i was looking for rejection i just know there are a lot of people hurting, and other people probably need advice or help more than i do. so i didn't want anyone to go without. that is just the way i am, i would rather others be happy and me be miserable than the other way around. i know this is stupid, and i am sorry. maybe that is something i need to work on in therapy (once i find a T)