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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
They know how hurt and angry I am.
They are really not going to call me again, ever.
I’m obsessing about it constantly and too depressed to even leave the house. I’m putting on a happy face for my husband and son and doing basic chores.
It feels too painful to my pride to call any of them and either act like nothing happened or apologize for nothing except I took offense to being hurt.
But, honestly, if I don’t call they will NEVER call me again. In the past, which this has happened many times with my Mom, it was always me who called. She turns it around and says it’s me hurting her.
I’m really not going to call this time. I’m in very much pain from this. I really mean so little to them as they can’t show any kindness. I’m sad.  |
I noticed you haven't posted much lately and that it seems like you post less when you are depressed.
I agree that they don't deserve you! You know how wonderful I think you are. From my POV, if you post something on FB, try to be encouraging or just keep people update if something truly significant happens (births, graduations, etc.) You explained how toxic your mom can be on many occasions. I am sorry. You obviously still love her but she hurts you over and over.
This site has helped me explore my internal emotions and struggles but now that I have figured out a lot, I now mostly work on learning to detach emotionally from my H and son when my emotions about them get too overwhelming. Admittedly, I use drugs and distance when it all becomes too much. Also, my jobs give me something else to think about/time apart. And sometimes I think of you and that gives me a warm feeling. I hope you feel better soon. Please don't give up. You have so much to offer......
