I know what it is bothering me... The abuse I took from my cousin for so many years. I still live at home right now because my check hasn't started, so I don't have the money to move out and my bedroom is the same room my cousin raped me in almost everynight for many years. I still have flashbacks and nightmares and being in this room makes me sick and depressed constantly because the memories are still here. :sad: I've talked to my parents about this and they won't let me move out into the front room of the house because it'll run up the power bill. That has me depressed a lot too because it seems they are choosing a freaking power bill over my well-being.