The experience with meds has varied for me. Sometimes the experience is uncomfortable in the beginning, but when I've adjusted to it that uncomfortable feeling has disappeared. Sometimes there's no discomfort. Sometimes it's great in the early days/years and then only later side effects start. As for effectiveness, I've had to be patient trying to find the right mix. Patience is a word I hated in my youth, but respect now.

I don't feel numb on my current mix and my side effects are very minimal to the point of almost insignificance. It may take a while for some people to grieve the loss of hypomania/mania, but I can say that as great as some of that felt in the past, I've learned to appreciate stability more. Being grounded and in control? Beautiful! And having relief from the seemingly more negative aspects of the disorder? Such a relief!

Meds are not always perfect at preventing breakthrough episodes. Adjustments are often necessary. But for me, a medicated situation is far better than an unmedicated one. Far better! With medications I must also avoid excess stress, use coping skills, and healthy life practices. Most people can't expect medications to do 100% of the work. Most people who reject medications truly cannot have adequate relief from bipolar symptoms with these "extras" alone.