Miss charlotte, I just suddenly remembered on mondays session telling T that at sch aged rather 9ish, I would have to play a game where I was kidnapped and tortured but I was getting so much happiness from this and it was important the other kids didn't know this, that they had to believe I was the "vicitm" and getting no joy from it. T said that children try and show what is going on for them in their life by using play, that the enjoyment I percieved the part of being the victim was my actually that I was conveying my pain. I think I watched the film the vikings around that age too.