The numb feelings a a real thing on a lot of meds. I especially had them on SSRIs, but everyone is different. Not happy, not sad, just present. But better than being in the hospital or horribly depressed. I wish I had brought this to my pdoc’s attention long before I did as then the pdoc adjusted meds so I was the least numb possible; I suspect stress caused me to sometimes be numb despite a meds adjustment. Though there were times when just being numb to things got me through the everyday. It’s a terrible balancing act.