Doctor today said I can go ahead and start lithium this evening. It shouldn’t effect the mri. Finally. But bad news is my dad had a stroke. He’s in surgery right now so depending on the outcome I may need to fly back to the states to NY to take care of stuff. I’m his everything. Medical power of attorney, will executive if he doesn’t make it. Have all his info. I’m the oldest of 5 and need to give emotional support. My youngest brother is 24 and is still living at home he’s in the middle of medical treatments too. It’s pretty overwhelming and in the midst of it all I’ll have to have a doc monitor my bloodwork weekly for the first month on lithium. I’m hoping if I need to fly out my husband and kids can go too I have a really hard time traveling alone.

I’m not in a good mental place at all.