Hello Deyla: Since this is your first post here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral.

Of course there are always two sides to a story especially when one is talking about relationships. But, from what you wrote, it sounds as though you were being taken advantage of & perhaps in what might be considered a verbally & emotionally abusive relationship. I don't know as there is a lot I can suggest to you, with regard to this. However it sounds to me as though this may well be a relationship you're best free of. You should not be having to apologize for something you didn't do.

Here are links to 9 articles, from PsychCentral's archives, that talk about how to know when you're in a verbally & / or emotionally abusive relationship & what to do about it, including a quiz you can take to help you determine if your relationship is abusive:

21 Warning Signs of an Emotionally Abusive Relationship

11 Warning Signs of Emotional Abuse in Relationships

7 Signs You May Be in an Abusive Relationship

5 Warning Signs of Manipulation in Relationships

Signs of Emotional Abuse

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...abused-part-i/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/signs-y...dium=popular17

https://pro.psychcentral.com/recover...-relationship/

https://psychcentral.com/library/domestic_quiz.htm

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.