I was asking t why I didn't have close friends.
He said "we are not close enough for 5 years too (I've been in therapy for 5 yrs). So there is something from your side. For example when I used *an f word* you were hurt. So maybe people are afraid that they maybe hurt you."
In my social context it is not appropriate to use such a word. And the idea that this (from our first year of therapy) was pulling us apart when I needed him closer makes me so sad. Oh, after 4 years...
Besides it made me so jelouse. Perhaps there are some people who are close enough and I'm not one of them...
And therapy was something I thought I was good at. Apparantly I'm not...