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you know - a bit of possible comprehension... that time that i wrote about was the last that had happened... and prior to that most had been from my dad. I wonder if this event helped seal it all away from my mind and make me react to my family as if they were not the perps.

does this make sense? it started with my family as a baby (yes, all members) and as i grew, the actual incest didn't start until (kind of unclear) 6 or 8 and continued through 11. In there, there were some other events but not that *specific* thing ; by a teacher, a friend's dad.... but then this one i wrote about at 12 which was ....well, different than all the others, and the last one. i wonder if that allowed my mind to lock it ALL away as not real or not by my family.
I wonder if that one hadn't happened how i would have precieved my family and if things might have been different.
kiya