My MI is ruining my life. If I could actually feel my emotions, I would be hysterical. I would hate to be able to cry because that might relieve some of my stress. So, all I have are words to express how what a horrible place I am in, and that I can't get out of. I am so devastated. The only thing that I seem to be able to rely on myself for is that I can't rely on myself for anything. At work, a person completely mocked me, and it wasn't just my perception, it was real. Now I am enraged, devastated, decimated, humiliated and my self-hatred is running amok.


I am feeling some intense rage. I don't even want to describe the imagery that I am imagining.