Hi Mogwai,

I had and still struggle with inner child concept it took me some time and practice, and perhaps it isn't for everyone as we're all different.
I know some people irl that do not relate or believe in innerchild; and that's their path and way & is ok.

One thing that resonated with me was after a few sessions with a t that was a good fit, and talking about innerchild .. my t picked up that the "kiddish things" i may do and I often times put myself down for those kiddish things. The dreaded question always came up "why?".

It was more than a couple sessions but one day T asked me what did I want to say to "little me" and that was little me didn't deserve what occurred.. for me, in session i couldn't hug my innerchild, but there was a meditation I listened to a few months back that I was crying at the end because it asked for listener (me) to hug my innerchild and to interact with my innerchild and I did... I cried because of so many reasons, but it was a relief.

While for years I told present me that I didn't deserve what all occurred, and neither my siblings, but it was more of an angry me that came out.. not an adult gentle me to a child me.. and I've always been big on protecting children, however my adult self to my innerchild I had continued to be cruel to in away, continuing to put "little me " down or just down right mean.

It somewhat "clicked" for me after a while and a combination of things. Even PC and other members chatting about their innerchild ame concepts.

I had not realized that I had done things for my innerchild along the way of understanding.

For example:
Getting clay and playing with it, creating something simple and silly, hugging a doll, enjoying fluffy things. So much can be neutering an innerchild

Now days I work more of how I "talk" to my innerchild.. integration still underway.. while my dxs aren't DID or MPD , my last t did help me understand the different selves that I am aware of which related to my PTSD, or just me in general I like to think instead of a label.

While some things I do today are not what I did as a child, I still feel and believe it helps that part of me grow. And I remind myself to not talk down to myself on it , as that's continuing one of many cycles....

I am sorry everyone for breaking check in..

Today my innerchild and a innerchild of a 70 some odd year old , talked about Holloween and cool creations i shared my pictures from last night