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Originally Posted by Jessica11
Maybe you weren't begging. You were asking for you felt you needed in that moment.
He could have said no. But he didn't.
I have a lot of Shame around asking for things.
Pur that together with having to ask a "professional" it doubles it. But that's just my head feeling me is some how wrong. I shouldn't have to need anything from anyone.
It makes asking people in my personal life a, whole lot easier because of having asked for things in therapy.
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I don't really have a problem asking for what I want, in or out of therapy. The painful part of this runs deeper than that. It's the relational aspect. The fact that this does not resemble any human relationship in any way. I need him and he doesn't need me and all I can offer him is money. When I am stronger I can rationalise that and see the good that therapy has done me. Not today.