Katie, my p-doc had to point out to me all the people in my life that have tried to help me and I did not let them. I did not realize they were trying to help .
It is hard, hard because the dissociation I think while saving us also sometimes blinds us to the help we might get. I have always been kinda numb. And then there is the not trusting part.

It is hard but everyone is right you are worth it. That part is hard to get too. My p-doc points out how worth it I am and I just never thought about that. Being worth it I mean.

I almost left this site today until I saw your post because I felt no one was responding to my posts and I was feeling invisible. See how we internalize stuff that is wrong probably but that is a trait I don't think I am alone in having just hard to break.

I was in chat last night revisting a friend that is here, she actually recommended this site. She isn't DID but told me in an email about this site. She said you will like this site it has come to be a home for me. I liked that.
I haven't had many of those places to feel like some place could feel like a home.

Now is a struggle as my flashbacks are taking over and even now my heart is racing with inside struggles but I am glad you responded to one of my posts. thanks for making me feel better too.