Based on everything you share about your therapy on this forum, Echos, it is really hard for me to believe that all he gets out of working with you is the money.

I really understand the shame about asking for extra and not just pulling it together and leaving composed. I never asked my Ts explicitly for extra time or effort, but my 2nd often invested it, both going over the formal time in sessions and with emails, and never made me pay for it or accepted when I offered it. I always felt highly ambivalent about it, and the negative part of the ambivalence was often shame about wanting it and having that need. I never explored the shame part in therapy (I did by myself, using my experiences), but I agree it may be a good idea for someone like you, who likes to get into your emotional world so deeply via therapy. I also think that verbally and directly asking for extra help when needed is a more mature approach than expressing that need indirectly (what I often did with my Ts). It is also less likely to lead to misunderstanding.