My dad seen the light
When I was in hospital.
And he saw that
I could not take
Being with Fred anymore.
And he hoped
That I did go back
To college and do
The access to nursing.
If you are trained
The world is your oyster.
But I had the time
To reflect and I realised
How broken I was,
Emotionally exhausted
And that this time
I needed to take at
Least a year out.
And I could only do
It away from the pressure
Of my family. And
I guess I went down
The beaten and abused
Wives road where
I was awarded temporary
Accommodation to get well.
Like womens aid ,
I qualified for a fresh start.
Because the nurses
Told me I had to
Not cut my nose off
To spite my face
As one said.
It was not easy to
Admit that I faced
Domestic abuse with both
My ex boyfriend and if
I stayed with my family.
Once you reach a
Certain age staying
With family can only
Really be temporary
Anyway until back on feet.
And without these
Safety nets that
Were in place I would
Not have met new
Friends that have
Been through hard times
Like I have,
And I would not have
Had the space and time
Away from family and
We may have cut
All the ties altogether.