I can only refer you back again to my anecdote about my late friend Alan. This tiny little man in a wheelchair, who could barely lift a glass to his lips with both hands, captivated people. No one went to visit Al because we felt sorry for him. He was born with MD and was too weak by the time he reached HS to continue his formal education. He did not, however, stop reading or being interesting and well-informed.

I really don't know you're situation. If you have a particularly disfiguring disease, such as leprosy, or the elephant man disease, it would be cruel for me to insist that "You can do it, too."

I observed Alan make so much of a life that easily could have held only bitterness, anger, loneliness, isolation -- by dint of his sheer will and interesting mind and keen interest in other people and the world around him. This makes it is challenging for me to believe that you have more going against you than he did.

I continue to have best wishes that you will find new hope and rebuild your self-esteem and your life.