Echos,

My heart went out to you as I read your post. So much of what you said was how I felt in the last couple of months in my own therapy; it was like listening to me from three months ago.

I didn't really get the sense from your therapist's email that they understood the depth of how you feel -- and if that's true, I'm truly sorry. I'm not sure what the answer is when these types of feelings come up -- a lot of therapists don't seem to understand them or know how to deal with them.

I don't have much advice, but I wanted to let you know there's someone out there who has experienced something similar and come out the other side, and I'm sure I'm not the only one on this forum. ((hugs if you want them))